I’ll be the first to admit that I have no idea what I want out of life. I don’t expect anything either. I also don’t think this a bad thing. I want to do what makes me happy and which ever direction that takes me. Well then, so be it. Come to think of it, isn’t not knowing what you want kinda knowing what you want?
I’ve mentioned how you shouldn’t try to figure people out. And you really shouldn’t. I know sometimes it’s hard to ignore people or not wonder why they do the things they do. If you can’t seem to let things go. Then just tell yourself that these people are intentionally acting the way they are and that they are brilliant. Make it a game. Make them a game. Make it fun.
Would you believe me? Probably not. Look at me. I don’t post many pictures of myself for fear people will make fun of me. I live across the street from a middle school and I have to leave my house before the kids get out at 2:30 or after 3:30 when they have all left the area. Kids are mean. Why is it anyone else can make fun of me and I laugh or shrug it off but kids can get to your core? Weird.
I’m a big quote person. I have notebooks full of quotes that I have come across over the years that I love. I have even given these quote notebooks as gifts. Some love them and some look at me like I’m some kind of smart ass. I think the quote books are genius as gifts and I just tell myself that my friends are all assholes. Here’s where I’m going with this. A lot of quotes contradict themselves, are just plain stupid or are pure common sense. Yet, there is one quote that drives me nuts. Have you heard the quote: “Don’t take people’s attitude personal. They are going through something you know nothing about” Well, this may be true and I am very sorry about what they may be going through. Yet, I am not the one that put them in their position. Maybe their bad attitude or the fact that they are assholes put them in their predicament. Life is a sum of all your choices, as my dear friend Ndah wrote in …
When I first moved to New York City I was living off the 1 train in the Bonx. Not that this has any relevance to the story. It was a trek up to the Bronx but I didn’t mind because the 1 train was absolutely fantastic for people watching. I still occasionally ride the 1 train to entertain myself. Hey tourists, riding the train is an experience don’t fear it.
Well, I was putting it off but I finally had my hernia surgery. I figured it was time since the hernia bulge in my underwear now looked bigger than my penis bulge.
I never thought at almost forty years old everything would fall apart.